Dodgeball days
To trust others is dangerous to me , this goes for loving others as well.I could say this stems from way back in them playground days where you could catch me sitting under that striped maple tree being that anti-social kiddo , trying to decide which of the others i should stay away from and which ones could be trusted as a friend..only bad part is that sometimes "time" is the only way to truly find out who a person is or isn't what you thought they were. Karma will come full circle undoubtedly!
It isn't suprising that i'm weary about others cause, somehow i've seemed to pick the most toxic people since them dodgeball days.There has to be a higher power at work to have put me in these difficult life lesson type situations , let's just pray that higher power guides me to something more powerfull in 2009.I have to give props to my buddy matt for commin' along when you did and bringin' positivity my way..even though i've been in this slump since whatsherface you mos definately have been helpin out..so, thanks a bunch yo!
B-day's on the rise
My amazing sister just had her second child this morning! and i am now and uncle 2x over :)
My best friend Dinyel and i don't talk as much as i would like
The phone no longer rings the way it once did
I haven't picked up my camera in almost 3 weeks
I want a family of my own
Here are some of the last shots i have taken around oakland
Oh and you out there in fremont..thanks for being such a fan of mine!
much appriciated
godbless
-j
Shook
Sometimes i wanna bang my head against the wall.It is 100% my fault for the investments i make in this life and i can't do anything else except learn from the good or bad ones.
I found myself walking the streets of berkeley till 2am tonight kicking fallen leaves around feeling this horrible feeling in my gut that most might go thru in thier lives.I felt that all too familiar emptiness surrounded by all these drunk & happy college kids and i hated it.I am very thankfull for the small amount of folks out there that actually make me feel wanted when they call me and want me to be a part of something but, still it's so hard being happy.
This is really gonna take a long time.
-j
Diversity
I told the woman at the east oakland youth center that i didn't want to participate in the ceremony.
because, there was no point cause nobody would be there i know and that would be excited for me.
she sat me down and gave me so much confidence that afterwards i couldn't believe i even said i didn't want to be a part!
She said i bring diversity to east oakland
i was like "i do..don't i ?"
anyone is welcome to come tonight at 6pm
here are some clicks i took in chinatown the other day
i'm hecka nervous
wish me luck
-j
DeFremery Park
Yesterday was enough to last me for weeks...
It started of pretty slow but, by the time i got to the park and mos def was doin his thing it was nothing less than one of the most memorable days i have had in a very long time.Never have i seen west oakland so alive than yesterday afternoon and between the kids at peoples skate park , the graf writers and the amazing weather i once again fell completely in love with oakland.I met up with my man wordup and also tripped over some people i haven't seen in over a year.I found myself imearsed in life and loving everystep along the way...
here are some shots and also some short video of my day.I am sliding over to doing more video and putting the bigger cameras aside temporarily just to feel it out and to document the cut life series i've picked up from my friends over in france.
I think imma treat myself to a nice dinner and a movie tonight!
hmm sirloin and Miracle at St. Anna
-j